i'm not hurt... !

The following words are meaningless.

I feel left out.. unloved
i have no clue what to say
i'm just unimportant.. in between all of these people
is there a cure ?
i feel like crying yet tears won't come out
so what am i suffering for?
this emptiness was always unknown

I feel meaningless
i feel like nothing
but i'm laughing everyday
i have friends to love and be loved by
but
i'm all alone
i'm just unimportant.. in between all of these people
is it an illness that has a cure?

Even though they listen
i feel ignored
i don't feel loved
i feel unloved
i've never been loved
i'm meaningless
unimportant

Do I Exist?

Am I Alive?

I don't feel alive
is this life?
it's always dark
it's way too dark
i'm scared
i'm petrified
and yet
i don't feel anything at all
it makes no sense
i'm just a mess
it's all a mess

I feel Good!
i'm Happy!
i'm Laughing!
i have Friends!
i am Loved!
i Smile!
i Live!




But...


I DON'T EXIST !!!!

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